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1940 wels, saThia iyo TiTqmis ToTxmeti wlis. miuxedavad amisa iseTi iyo rwmena masebis mis RmrTiurebaSi rom xalxi grovdeboda, axalgazrda da moxuci, mdidari da Raribi. erTgulebis am TavSeyraSi iyvnen maharajebi da mcire miwis mflobeli aznaurobis wevrebi. amis garda presamac daiwyo yuradRebis miqceva. ufrosma Zmam seSama rajum, jer kidev bolomde gaucnobierebelma babas RmrTiurebaSi, daiwyo dardi im yuradRebis gavlenis gamo romelsac misi umcrosi Zma Rebulobda. es Tayavniscema auvardeboda TavSi axalgazrda saThias? daecemoda is msxverplad sxvadasxva cdunebebis? seSama rajum gamouxata Tavisi SeSfoTeba babas, romelmac daubruna mas pasuxi 1947 wlis 25 maiss. Tumca werili iyo ganzraxuli seSama rajusTvis, sinamdvileSi is aris gagzavnili “yvelasTvis vinc aris Cemi erTguli”. es werili aris sai avataris miznis brwyinvale gancxadeba. am werilSi, baba wers:

Cemo Zvirfaso adamiano! me miviRe yvela Setyobineba romelic Sen gamomigzavne. me aRmovaCine Seni erTgulebis da siTbos azvirTebul niaRvarSi eWvebis da mRelvarebis qvedinebebi, neba momeci me giTxra Sen rom SeuZlebelia SeaRwio gulebSi da aRmoaCino buneba jnanis (brZenkacis), iogis, asketis, wmindanis, brZenis da msgavsis. adamianebi dajildoebuli arian mravalferovani maxasiaTeblebiT da gonebrivi warmosadegobiT; amitom, TiToeuli adamiani gansjis Tavisi sakuTari kuTxis Sesabamisad, laparakobs da amtkicebs misi sakuTari bunebis gonebrivi unariT. magram Cven vdgevarT Cven sakuTar gzaze, Cvens sakuTar sibrZneze, da Cvens sakuTar gadawyvetilebaze xalxis SefasebiT gatanjulobis SeZenis gareSe. rogorc andaza ambobs, mxolod xiliT datvirTuli xe iRebs qvebis Tavsxmas gamvlelebidan. kargi yovelTvis provocirebs cuds ciliswamebaSi; cudi yovelTvis provocirebs kargs ufro meti kargis keTebaSi; es aris msoflios buneba. adamians unda gaukvirdes Tu aseTi ram ar xdeba.
adamianebi unda ibralebdnen upiratesad vidre kicxavdnen. maT ar ician. maT ar aqvT moTmineba rom sworad gansajon. isini aseve savse arian gulisTqmiT, risxviT da Tavis Tavze didi warmodgeniT rom xedaven naTlad da ician srulad. amitom isini weren yvela saxis rameebs. Tuki maT ecodinebodaT, isini Tavs Seikavebdnen weridan an misi msgavsi saubrebidan. Cvenc ar unda mivceT raime faseuli mniSvneloba aseT komentarebs da ar unda mivitanoT isini gulTan, rogorc Sen Cans rom akeTeb. WeSmariteba ueWvelad gaimarjvebs romeliRac dRes. sicrue verasdros SeZlebs gamarjvebas. sicrue SeiZleba mogeCvenos WeSmaritebaze metad Zlevamosilad, magram misi gamarjveba gauCinardeba da WeSmariteba damkvidrdeba TavisTavad.
es ar aris didi adamianis wesi amaRlde rodesac adamianebi gTavazoben Tayvaniscemas da moikunto rodesac adamianebi civad gSordebian. sinamdvileSi, wminda teqstebi ar devs didi adamianebis cxovrebis mosawesrigebel wesebSi, brZanebis gacemis Cveulebasa da damokidebulebaSi romelic maT unda SeiTvison. maT TviT ician gza romelic unda aiRon. maTi sibrZne awesrigebs da xdis maT moqmedebebs wmindas. TviTrwmena da sasargeblo moRvaweoba – es ori aris maTi gansakuTrebuli niSani. isini aseve SeiZleba dakavebuli iyvnen erTgulTa keTildReobis xelSewyobasa da maTTvis maTi saqmianobis nayofebis micemaSi. rogor unda Segexos Sen daeWveba da Sewuxeba, imden xans vidre me var am oris erTguli? bolos da bolos qeba da gakicxva ar exeba atmas; isini SeiZleba Seexos mxolod gareTa CarCos.
me maqvs amocana: xeli Seuwyo kacobriobas da uzrunvelvyo yvela adamianisTvis anandiT savse cxovreba.
me maqvs aRTqma: rom yvela, vinc uxvevs swori gzidan, kvlav miviyvano sikeTesTan da uSvelo maT.
me mibmuli var ‘samuSaosTan’ romelic me miyvars: rom mouxsna tanjva gaWirvebulebs da mivce maT rac akliaT.
me maqvs ‘amayad yofnis mizezi’: vinaidan, me gadavarCen yvelas vinc Tayvans mcems da maRmerTebs me.
me maqvs ganmarteba ;erTgulebis’: me vimedovneb rom es Cemi erTguli moepyroba sixaruls da dards, mogebas da wagebas, sulis Tanabari simtkiciT.
me arasdros vityvi uars maTze vinc me SemomierTdeba. roca me var amgvarad dakavebuli keTilismyofel Cems samuSaoSi, rogor SeiZleba Cemi saxeli iyos odesme gafermkrTalebuli rogorc Sen SiSob? me girCevdi Sen ar miaqcio yuradReba amgvar absurdul saubrebs. mahaTmebi ar iZenen didobas imis gamo rom vinme maT ase uwodebs; isini ar xdebian patarebi ubralod imitom rom zogierTi uwodebs maT pataras. mxolod isini vinc knindebian mxiarulebiT opiumSi magram aqvT pretenzia iogis mjobebad yofnis, mxolod isini vinc citireben wminda teqstebs TavianTi gurmanobis da siamayis gasamarTleblad, mxolod isini vinc arian mtveriviT mSrali mecnierebi gaxarebuli TavianT sakamaTo xelovnebaSi, moZraoben qebiT da gakicxviT.
Sen unda waikiTxo wmindanebis da RmrTiuri personaJebis cxovrebis moTxrobebi. aseT wignebSi Sen unda waikiTxo aseve saSineli tyuilebi da sazizRari danaSaulad Seracxvebi gaTvlili maT winaaRmdeg. es aris mahaTmebis xvedri yvelgan da yovel dros. maSin ratom iReb am rameebs ase didad gulTan? gana Sen ar gsmenia rom ZaRlebi yefen varskvlavebs? ramdenad didxans SeiZleba gagrZeldes es? sinamdvile male gaimarjvebs.
me uars ar vityvi arc Cems misiaze arc gadawyvetilebaze. me unda ganvaxorcielo es. me vepyrobi mSvidad Rirsebas an uRirsobas romelic SeiZleba iyos Sedegi. Sinaganad me var mTlianad udardeli. me vmoqmedeb magram mxolod da mxolod gare samyaroSi. Tu me vlaparakob da davdivar, es aris mTlianad gare samyaros gulisTvis, da imisTvis rom gavxado adamianebi gacnobierebuli RmrTiurebis mosvlaSi. amis garda me ar maqvs Sexeba sxva danarCen raimesTan.
me ar mivekuTvnebi romelime adgils. me ar var mibuli romelime saxelze. me ar maqvs ‘Cemi’ an ‘Seni’. me vpasuxob nebismier saxelze romelsac Sen gamoiyeneb. me mivdivar yvelgan sadac ar unda viyo saWiro an daZaxebuli.
CemTvis samyaro aris raRac Sors da gverdze. me vmoqmedeb da vmoZraob mxolod kacobriobis gulisTvis.
aravis SeuZlia gaigos Cemi sidiade, vinc ar unda iyos is, rogoric ar unda iyos gamokvlevis meTodi, da mniSvneloba ar aqvs ramden xans iqneba mcdeloba.
Sen TviTon naxav srul sidiades gaxsnils uaxloes wlebSi. erTgulebs unda hqondeT moTmineba da TavSekaveba.
me ar var Sewuxebuli arc aRelvebuli rom es faqtebi gaxdes cnobili. me ar mWirdeba am sityvebis dawerac. me vwerdi maT imitom rom me vgrZnobdi rom Sen iqnebi nawyeni Tu me ar gipasuxeb.

ase, Tqveni, baba.